Start of a New Week

 Yesterday morning started off beautiful. Husband and I got out early and enjoyed a beautiful sunrise. Unfortunately the rest of the day wasn't so beautiful. Rain set in and it rained and rained and is still raining Monday morning! It's supposed to continue the rest of the day. 

Daughter drove from Minnesota yesterday in all that rain. Not a fun drive. It takes about ten hours. She's very brave to drive all that way by herself (with lovely dog Shasta). She took bereavement for the week so she can be here for Aunt Jane's graveside goodbye on Friday. She's going to try to help us with the Jane's house too. It's lovely to be able to spend some time with her, but I'd rather it not be because of this. 

I sorted through another of my storage cubes. I've started a box of books I've found tucked in random places (there seems to be a lot of them!). I will either read promptly or donate. There are too many books in this house (is there such a thing?). I think that, going forward, I'm going to get rid of the things I find easy to let go of and others I'm not sure of I'll hang on to for a specified period and then revisit to let go of. I would rather donate than just put things in the bin as this makes it a little easier to let go of things. 

Sunrise from yesterday morning

Just Everyday

I thought today would be one where I wouldn't accomplish anything. The three month anniversary is today. When Mum passed we had a memory page made, so today I left another memory there. I think it helps. It's like talking to her. My sister had left one too. I know she is missing Mum. She was her primary caretaker and the one who visited her in her bubble all this past year plus with Covid. I know she has people supporting her. I worry about her. I think the one good thing - if there is one - to come from Mum passing is that my sister and I have strengthened our relationship. There is more to her than I ever thought or imagined. I think she feels a little responsible for me as I am the baby in the family :)

Sister sent me flowers yesterday to cheer me up after Aunt's passing. We had talked about Aunt often. Although my Mum had only met Aunt Jane (she is on my husband's side) a handful of times, Aunt Jane had sent my Mum cards every Christmas and when Mum had cancer she sent her cards to send her well wishes. I think I remember seeing one Aunt Jane had sent Mum after she had Covid this past January (before Jane fell ill).  Mum always asked after her. 

On a house note, as I mentioned at the begining of the post, I thought I wouldn't get anything done (except household regulars that I am managing to keep up with) but I was watching telly and decided to take a break and pulled out just a small storage box. I threw out quite a lot in it, silly things I was holding onto - not sure why. Makes me feel as though I've sorted something lol. 

I think tomorrow I might - might! - sort through one of the boxes I put things into when I came back from England. Daughter is coming on Sunday and I'd like to share some of the photos I brought back. 

Laugh of the day - funny squirrel. A little baby. I have photos of the Mum with baby and another with babies, but one day this one ventured into the garden by itself. 

Plodding Along

 Thanks for all the wonderful thoughts/good wishes on my last post. It just seems to be one thing on top of another. I want the year to be done.  Tomorrow it will be three months since Mum passed. I've been regularly messaging my sister and she says she is still having good and bad days. She also said she had heard that the plaque for Mum's bench in Felixstowe has been finished. There isn't a date when it will be installed as they are short staffed. We are hoping it's before the weather gets too bad and sister can't get to Felixstowe to see it. 

It seems an odd thing to say, but with the losses in our family and the things that follow it has got me thinking about sorting out some of my own things and decluttering. I probably shouldn't be thinking of tackling it when we have a whole (somewhat hoarded house) to sort through, but I'm going to do a little at a time and work on getting rid of things that I 'might use someday' or haven't used in a while. 

I did well enough this week that I sorted all the post that needs to be shredded and recycled or put in the bin the things that didn't need to be shredded. The shredding is on the list for next week. I have also started getting together a box of books that will be donated and have even started another box for misc. donation items. I felt quite productive...at least for a few hours. 

Photo - things that brought a smile to my face. 

Daughter sent me a photo of her nail art. She's started doing her nails with stick-ons. I thought these looked quite fun. Not sure I could do a lot with them on though lol 

A Sad Day

 Sadly we lost another member of our family early this morning. Aunt Jane, my husband's aunt, passed away this morning. I don't think I've mentioned her illness, but she fell unwell back in April.  It's been another of those things that has been getting me down. Seems so much of it. This year, for us, has been really terrible. 

Jane was a wonderful lady. She never married or had children of her own so she was an extra special part of our family.  She spent her working life teaching other children. When our kids were little she would do things with them, take them places and as they grew older she 'employed' them to help in her garden. She was a passionate geanologist and loved lighthouses. I think she visited every lighthouse (or most of them) in Michigan - there are 129. I think it was her love of lighthouses that made me want to visit them.  She'll leave a big hole in our lives. 

This AR emoji of her always makes me smile. We were playing around with my new phone (a couple of years back at Christmas) and I was showing her the AR emoji. We made one of her and it made her laugh!

I hope she is at peace and out of pain. 

Sigh - more time passed/ Happy News

 I'm getting through the days but some are more difficult than others. 

Last weekend I managed not to cry sad tears (it was a struggle but I did it). My wonderful daughter got married!!! It's been planned for a while. I just haven't wrote about it as I've just been...well, struggling. I put my happy face on, was as social as I could be (I'm an introvert at heart) and had a good time. I thought about Mum a lot. I would have loved to chat with her before the wedding and shared photos after. 

The wedding took place in Minnesota. The North Shore. Added time to the usual daughter drive. It took us about 12 hours! A looonnnggg drive! We survived it. The wedding was on Sunday. We drove up Friday, had Saturday to spend with daughter, had the wedding Sunday and drove back on Monday.  The wedding was lovely.  Her husband is a great guy and I'm really pleased for them . 

I did not take wedding photos. My daughter wanted me to enjoy the day. I did take photos of her getting ready and I took a few later on in the reception (after the photographer had left). I did get to go along with them when they were having photos done pre-ceremony. 

I did take this one from afar with my phone. I can't wait to see the photos. 

The area up there was beautiful. I really would have loved to stay longer so maybe a return trip will be in the future. 

These were taken with my phone too. I - as always - have some catching up to do!

It's the weekend again. We did a short walk today. We found a new-to-us nature walk and enjoyed walking the short trails. It was a really pretty area and I'm sure we will go there again when the leaves start to turn more. There are a couple of places there that I'd love to photograph with colour. From there we drove up along the lakeshore to South Haven, a lovely Lake Michigan town. I must admit that I enjoy it more in the off-season. It gets quite busy in the summer and can be packed with people. It was a fairly warm day today and there were people around but we managed to avoid most of them - ha ha. 

It was quite pleasant outside today. The forecast called for rain and there were a few showers, but mostly it was sunny and mild. I wish I had gone out for an afternoon walk as tomorrow doesn't look good, but I stayed indoors and did a couple of things I've been meaning to do. 

This cartoon really made me smile today. There were a few leaves turning on our walk and a few more that had already fallen. 

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

New Month - October Joys

 New month, fresh start. 

I usually love October. The shorter days bring cooler weather. I can have the windows open in the daytime and let some lovely fresh air inside the house. The mornings are cool, but not yet cold enough that I need to turn the heat on. It's that lovely in-between time. It's also a great month for energy bills as neither the air conditioner or the heaters are on. I love the changing of the season too. It's lovely to see the beautiful colours starting to take over the trees. Even now some trees are beginning to change. 

This month I'm going to try to look on the bright side of things, look at things that bring me joy, whether they are big or little things. There is so much beauty around. 

You can just see the few trees on my morning walk are beginning to change. I must admit that I haven't felt much like walking lately - I haven't felt much like doing anything - but I have been getting up each morning and going walking with my friend.  I've been taking photos - a lot of animal ones, but I'm growing a little restless with those and really want to find a photo project that I can sink my teeth into. 

Something I will get done this month that I've been putting off - I brought back a lot of pictures and other mementoes from Mum's house. I unpacked my suitcase and have just put them all in a box. It seems so hard to go through them. I know I am not honouring them by just keeping them packed away but I'm finding it difficult to go through them again. So that is something I definitely want to get done this month.

Thanks for all the support. I really do appreciate all the comments. 

Weekend

 It's hot here again. I was hoping for cooler days when I got back as they had a horrible really hot few weeks when I was gone. Unfortunately it's hot again. The air conditioner is back on for a little while longer. 

Thanks for all the wonderful comments. I have missed the blogging community, but I just haven't felt like posting most days. I am going to make an effort to get back to posting even if I'm not doing too much. The days are passing and some are good, but some are filled with sadness and some tears. I'm finding it quite difficult some days. I know that things will get better with time. 

I am slowly sorting through photos I took while in England.  I made sure I got out each day even if it was for a walk. There are a couple of lovely parks in town and I spent a lot of time there and took lots of photos of the gardens and the birds.  I managed to catch sight of some lovely birds. Nature certainly makes things a little brighter. 

Two good upcoming things:-

* while I was in England my sister told me that my neice was having another baby in the New Year!

* daughter is getting married next month.

Photo for today :- a lovely English Robin. I loved seeing these little birds. Some of them were so curious and came quite close. 

Checking in - It's been a While

 I haven't really felt like posting so I haven't been. I got back from England last Wednesday. I thought about postponing my return so that I could help my sister sort through more of Mum's things, but I came back when I was scheduled to do so. I helped as much as I could. We planned and had Mum's funeral and sorted through some of her things. My sisters will sort out the rest and get Mum's flat ready for sale. It's been a long, emotional few weeks. I did get to spend some time with my sisters, especially my middle sister C, who I doubt I would have got through the past few weeks without. Her and her husband took me under their wing and made sure I never felt alone.  It's just been so draining. I still feel quite sad a lot of the time. 

I have some catching up to do, getting back into the swing of things and trying to think of the good times Mum and I had together. 

One of my last sunsets out of the back bedroom at my Mum's place. 

Thanks

 Thank you for all the lovely supportive comments following Mum's death. We are sorting out details and such. There is a lot more involved than any of us thought, but at least we have each other. 

The days I had in quarantine after Mum's death were really tough. It wasn't easy being so alone. Had a bout of tears and some anger when the quarantine rules were changed too. Two weeks. Just two weeks earlier and I could have flown in and seen Mum right away. I know I can't go back and change things but I was so sad and angry. I had tried to do everything right and it was too late.

I've been spending time with my sisters and we are slowly sorting things out. In between I have been getting out for walks and trying to take photos. I must admit though my heart hasn't really been in it. I suppose it will take time. The places I have been to mostly have memories of Mum and I visiting and then I miss her all over again. I am trying to think of the good times that we had together. 

A couple of phone photos