I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed today.
It didn't help that I didn't sleep well last night. I woke up at 2am and kept thinking about things and then couldn't fall back asleep. It was about 4.15 when I dozed off again only to have a horrible water nightmare (I always have these when stressed or worried about things). It was horrible and so realistic. Husband and I were in a car on a bridge. On one side the water was calm and on the other there were huge waves heading our way. I remember them coming towards us and the next I knew I woke in the car and we were under water and drowning. It was then when I woke up. It was so realistic. I sat up and said 'oh sh**' I had to tell myself that I was awake. It was horrible.
The day itself was overwhelming. Just little things on top of little things. In the big scheme of things I know it seems really silly, but I just felt so overwhelmed with everything I wanted to cry (well, I did) or bury myself beneath a cave of blankets and ignore everything. The mess in my house is getting to me. I have too much stuff. On days like this I can only imagine how Jane must have felt with all her stuff. My house is nowhere near as bad as hers, but I seem to have an emotional attachment to too many things. I'm not sure where to even start.
I didn't get everything done today that was on my list. Ack.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
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Can't say I did a lot of smiling today, but when in doubt chocolate always makes things better so I delved into my British stash and had some chocolate.
(((HUGS))) Sharon. Your nightmare sounds horrible! Is it at all possible to take a week or so off from cleaning Jane's house, just to have a break?
ReplyDeleteI can empathize with you over having emotional attachments to too many things! It's hard to declutter when the majority of the things have sentimental value! Today, I decluttered a small item that had been a gift from my mother. I had packed it away and kept it in the garage because I couldn't bear to get rid of it, earlier. Today, I was able to let go of it. I hope that tomorrow will be a better day for you.
Oh no you poor thing. That dream sounds so scary and it's no wonder you were shaken up. I hope today is a better day for you. I totally get being emotionally attached to stuff. I wish to heck I could just let go but it's so hard.
ReplyDeleteThe news from Ukraine is a constant worry here. That is so depressing it's making me unsettled.
ReplyDeleteHope you feel much better today
Easy to understand the feeling of being overwhelmed and the impact it has on sleep. Nightmares are simply an ugly pile on. Hope that you are able to get some decent rest in the days to come. Undisturbed sleep and some days of rest should help you re-frame all those overwhelming thoughts and feelings. When in doubt, British chocolate is the next best thing. x
ReplyDeleteSending lots and lots and lots of hugs. Your life has been so jumbled up over the last year. You've lost people, and that isn't a little thing you get over in a week. Life has hit you like an overwhelming wave.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I think it takes time to recover from a nightmare like that. It shakes you up in all sorts of different ways.
I wish I had seen this earlier to send more hugs. Somedays just taking one step in front of another is a triumph. I hope the chocolate helped. Sending all good vibes and prayers.